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At the moment my life feels like concrete. My face is grey and formless. I cannot smile but I daren't cry either. Then I remember one of our first conversations together:
Girl: 'I can't do Surds. And I've got my maths exam this week.'
Boy: 'Well, talk to me, I'll show you how. I can do surds. I'll teach you.'
Girl: 'Okay.'
Boy: 'Uh, well, I told a lie. I'm rubbish at maths.'
Girl: 'Then why did you even bother to offer?!'
Boy: 'I don't know, but it got me talking to you, right?'
Sometimes I hear music being played on the radio. The familiar lyrics jar and haunt my hearing as I scrape the dust from happy memories. Memories of you, dancing in your union jack boxers and singing in front of a mirror.
At times like that I do not know whether to laugh or cry. So I sing and dance, pretending to be you, because when I do that I feel as though nothing ever happened.
But most of the time I feel numb. Against my will I've been engulfed in a foreign world. A barren world, where nothing ever happens and no one ever speaks. I feel so guilty for the quarrels that we once had. I feel physically sick because for weeks I didn't even acknowledge your existence.
I'm sorry that more people didn't get the chance to meet you. You were such a brave little fighter. Fighting through the words, the pain and the hate.
My biggest regret though, is how I never stopped you. You told me everything, but I never even thought to stop you.
Then you tripped.
And when you tripped we were both lost forever.
Girl: 'I can't do Surds. And I've got my maths exam this week.'
Boy: 'Well, talk to me, I'll show you how. I can do surds. I'll teach you.'
Girl: 'Okay.'
Boy: 'Uh, well, I told a lie. I'm rubbish at maths.'
Girl: 'Then why did you even bother to offer?!'
Boy: 'I don't know, but it got me talking to you, right?'
Sometimes I hear music being played on the radio. The familiar lyrics jar and haunt my hearing as I scrape the dust from happy memories. Memories of you, dancing in your union jack boxers and singing in front of a mirror.
At times like that I do not know whether to laugh or cry. So I sing and dance, pretending to be you, because when I do that I feel as though nothing ever happened.
But most of the time I feel numb. Against my will I've been engulfed in a foreign world. A barren world, where nothing ever happens and no one ever speaks. I feel so guilty for the quarrels that we once had. I feel physically sick because for weeks I didn't even acknowledge your existence.
I'm sorry that more people didn't get the chance to meet you. You were such a brave little fighter. Fighting through the words, the pain and the hate.
My biggest regret though, is how I never stopped you. You told me everything, but I never even thought to stop you.
Then you tripped.
And when you tripped we were both lost forever.
Literature
Speak Louder Than Words
Through the hundreds, even thousands,
of unique languages spoken by our race
internationally, occasionally you can still
understand someone just by a blink of
an eye; by their kinetic movements.
Simple feelings can be portrayed as simple
gestures; happiness as a smile, love as a kiss,
sadness as a tear or droop of the shoulders.
At times our greatest feelings of burning
passion cannot be expressed in any language.
No word can give reasoning to that sensation
in the pit of your stomach or the pumping
in your chests.
Every so often, actions speak far louder than
any word of any language possibly could.
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It Almost Feels like Cheating
Right now,
I don't care who's arms I'm in.
They're all the |s|a|m|e|;
Just shells of people with names that don't matter;
None of them are you
I wish I was better then this,
That I wasn't some whore seeking some attention just so she's not so
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what I could never see
You would say...
"you're beautiful
perfect
wonderful"
while looking straight at me.
I told you it was a sin to lie, no matter how beautiful the mouth that whispered them were.
You repeated the tired rhythm and I always brushed you away. I never knew how much that killed you inside until it was too late. You tried everything to get me to see me the way you do. I covered up the mirrors and turned away from your crying, pleading eyes. I bled out my pain, creating the scars I felt worthy of. After so many years of being pushed down, and only having you, one in a million telling me otherwise, I had lost my ability to believe I was anything b
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original title was 'The Point at Which Things Happen' after something my maths teacher drones about but didn't fit :/
Sorry, but this seems to be all I can write about. I apologise, ignore me.
Sorry, but this seems to be all I can write about. I apologise, ignore me.
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wow... i like this, it's very sad and a happy tone at the same time, but it's more like the sad tone to me... i just don't know why it is.