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I remember when you left me.
*
"Please," I whispered, my lips soft against your ear, "Don't go..."
At that point you pulled away, "But I have to. You know I have to, it's not my wish. It's the government's, I have to fight in this war."
"Run away, and come back to me," I said, pleading with you.
"I can't," was your reply, "They'll hate me if I do. There are rumours that the punishment for running away is – "
Quickly, I placed my finger on your lips, "Don't say the word."
"Then I won't."
We kissed. Together, awkward hand in awkward hand, we walked down to the train station. There, waving my old, threadbare scarf, I bid you farewell.
*
You didn't die in the trenches. At the time of your return I was relieved. So relieved. But now, as I gaze back through the years, I realise I was mistaken. It would've been kinder for you to have died out there, fighting. It would have been noble and right. You should've fallen in the mud, amongst the rotten and broken bodies.
However you still live now, seventy years later. If you can call it living.
*
I wake up to screaming. When the nightmares had first started I'd been startled, but now they are as familiar to me as salt and pepper.
"No!" you cry, sobbing into your pillows, "Make them stop! Stop the shooting!"
And there is nothing I can do but hug you and whisper reassurances into your ear. Yet you never want my help. You never even recognise that your comforter is me. Tonight is no different. Without love, without memories, you push me away.
You push me away and you scream.
*
Yes. You were never shot. You were never wounded. You never died out there, out there in the trenches. Not physically anyway. But your mind.... it fell during those long bitter years. It fell and it cracked into a thousand pieces.
Sometimes, no, all the time, I cry too. Because I know, deep down, it was my hands that dropped you. Me who shattered you. I shouldn't have ever let you go.
I should've kept you home, home with me. Safe.
*
"Please," I whispered, my lips soft against your ear, "Don't go..."
At that point you pulled away, "But I have to. You know I have to, it's not my wish. It's the government's, I have to fight in this war."
"Run away, and come back to me," I said, pleading with you.
"I can't," was your reply, "They'll hate me if I do. There are rumours that the punishment for running away is – "
Quickly, I placed my finger on your lips, "Don't say the word."
"Then I won't."
We kissed. Together, awkward hand in awkward hand, we walked down to the train station. There, waving my old, threadbare scarf, I bid you farewell.
*
You didn't die in the trenches. At the time of your return I was relieved. So relieved. But now, as I gaze back through the years, I realise I was mistaken. It would've been kinder for you to have died out there, fighting. It would have been noble and right. You should've fallen in the mud, amongst the rotten and broken bodies.
However you still live now, seventy years later. If you can call it living.
*
I wake up to screaming. When the nightmares had first started I'd been startled, but now they are as familiar to me as salt and pepper.
"No!" you cry, sobbing into your pillows, "Make them stop! Stop the shooting!"
And there is nothing I can do but hug you and whisper reassurances into your ear. Yet you never want my help. You never even recognise that your comforter is me. Tonight is no different. Without love, without memories, you push me away.
You push me away and you scream.
*
Yes. You were never shot. You were never wounded. You never died out there, out there in the trenches. Not physically anyway. But your mind.... it fell during those long bitter years. It fell and it cracked into a thousand pieces.
Sometimes, no, all the time, I cry too. Because I know, deep down, it was my hands that dropped you. Me who shattered you. I shouldn't have ever let you go.
I should've kept you home, home with me. Safe.
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I am.
I am.
I am the person who lives.
I am the person who loves.
I am the girl who cries to sleep at night, wishing I could be prettier.
I am the boy who is trying to live up to everyone else's expectations other than my own.
I am the invisible who linger in the hallways.
I am the person who bullies to feel better.
I am the parent who gave up after my child went to jail.
I am the daughter who works at fifteen because my parents can't.
I am the person who is bullied for being different.
I am the person who lives because I don't know what happens after death.
I am the woman who is hit on every day because of my looks, making them more of
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reality?
You want me to save
The person you all see;
I'm dying to save
The girl I'll never be.
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Never Again
The rain boy had sworn that he would never again smile. His eyes always soaked the oceans with tears from his past and his heart was always dark and locked to anyone who could try and help him. His world had become so bleak and dark, that he stood in rooms of people that were a blur past him and a guitar that just no longer played.
So when the sunshine girl met the rain boy, for a second, the world stood still. In that tiny little balcony, where there was only space for two, the sunshine girl asked the rain boy, "When was the last time you smiled?"
The rain boy was startled for a second at someone talking to him, but he answered anyway, "I
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hehe. So many flaws, so many flaws. Another WW2 one, I think, but shell shock and blah is probably more likely to have come from WW1 so yah. history. I spent all day catching up on history coursework because I missed one lesson when I was ill and I missed another being dragged out to speak to a teacher. So yah. Day off school well spent, how fun.
Will probably scrap later! Don't worry!
But I'm still being forced to read The Princess Bride by my mother okays, I am enjoying it, but don't tell her that and they have a life sucky machine!!! Why can't my characters have a life sucky machine!!??? Stoopid writer, coming up with good ideas that I'll never be able to use now. And he's stolen all the good names like Fezzik and Inigo.
No wonder all my peeps have stoopid names like Speaker and Other and TeF and 'Jah if all the cool names have been stolen!!!
need to get a life.
Will probably scrap later! Don't worry!
But I'm still being forced to read The Princess Bride by my mother okays, I am enjoying it, but don't tell her that and they have a life sucky machine!!! Why can't my characters have a life sucky machine!!??? Stoopid writer, coming up with good ideas that I'll never be able to use now. And he's stolen all the good names like Fezzik and Inigo.
No wonder all my peeps have stoopid names like Speaker and Other and TeF and 'Jah if all the cool names have been stolen!!!
need to get a life.
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Very good, this is a very controversial and sad subject :/